I read blogs all the time - some are about fashion, sports, cooking, baking but most are on motherhood. Some are my friends, some are those who I went to high school with, some are those who I will never meet but feel that I know so well. Some go through the same challenges as myself, some go through challenges that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.
I have several friends + even family members who have not been able to have babies the old fashioned way and instead have gone the routes of adoption, ivf, + surrogacy. Their stories have all inspired me and made me realize how truly lucky Greg + I have been regarding our fertility. We have been blessed with 2 healthy pregnancies + babies done the old fashioned way.
I have been reading this blog "Maybe If You Just Relax" for awhile now having been introduced to her through other blogs that I read on a daily basis. She has struggled with having babies and has had gone through ivf and what not. She was expecting twin girls in February but they were expected to be born on Dec 30th because of her high blood pressure and protein in her urine. One baby was a hog and the other was tiny. Throughout the pregnancy, the main concern was always the tiny baby.
Everything changed on the evening of the 29th. I will let you read her story from her words herself but it makes it more real then you could ever imagine.
http://www.jennepper.com/
As i read her post this morning, I cried into my oatmeal as I heard Penelope cooing in her jumper and Finley laughing chasing the cats around. I can't even imagine what she must be going through + I think it would even be insulting to her if I tried.
I cried for her loss, I cried for the girls she still had, I cried for my kids and for all my friends and even those I don't know who all had or are having similar experiences to her. I am crying while I type this and every time I think of Jen, I cry.
So today say a prayer not just for Jen and her family but for all those going through the same thing and say a prayer for yourself because God knows how lucky you are to have what you have.
I can't even imagine a tragedy that immense. I try to empathize with people in those situations and put myself there too, and I just bawl like a baby. I am so deeply grateful for all I have and I send out prayers and best wishes to those that struggle when it shouldn't be that hard.
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